I don't know

I just don’t know but I read recently that estimates say that 90 percent of the world’s data has been generated in the previous two years or less (i.e. that is a lot of “big air” folks). Others note that currently more than one billion people log on to Facebook daily, and every minute more than half a million comments are posted on the site. Add to that the content from all other forms of social media, a thousand television channels, thousands of new books every year, and on and on. This is the “age of information glut.” We are awash in a sea of words.  AverageJoe says—Everyone gets their perspective from somewhere!

I just don’t know.  I read the book, The Stories of Ernest Hemingway, and in one of his stories he wrote this through one of his characters (i.e. I don’t’ know if he is talking about himself or not)—"Remember, that he who ruleth his spirit is greater than he that taketh a city.”  How smart are you? What does that mean?  That could be very thought provoking for many.  Does that make you think at all?  Hemmingway is a great writer but I don’t know.   What do you think? How does that affect you?

Here are some more words from another short story of Hemingway that are interesting—"It isn’t fun anymore…She didn’t say anything. He went on. I feel as though everything has gone to hell inside of me.  I don’t know, Marge I don’t know what to say.”  Sooooo what do you think of that?  That is what I thought.

I don’t know but I think…! What I think is that what I write isn’t always what my feelings and thoughts are but sometimes they are (i.e. how do you really know)!  Sometimes you guys read a lot more into my writing than meant to be and sometimes you miss my point (i.e. I think you don’t get it).  You might misunderstand me all together.  I think that is really interesting.  Words without body language are interesting aren’t they.  Some of you and I are more compatible than others and that is why you understand me as you do.  Those who totally don’t understand me, don’t read my writings at all (i.e. they read something else or nothing at all but watch “wrestling mania” instead.  That will work!  Such is life.

I don’t know but do you ever wonder if your life would have been different if…? I mean better or worse! Think about the positive "ifs" toooo folks. What are the “ifs” that you are thinking about?  Really!  I probably can believe but not understand all of your “ifs.”  Really, I don’t know if I can.  What is your #1 “if?”  We probably all have different #1 “ifs” I would guess.  Maybe not. I don’t know.  I asked a OneSmartPerson this question and she said—I do not remember wondering about myself.  I guess I just figured it was my job to make the best of wherever I was.  But I have wondered about some others. How their lives would be if they were raised in different circumstances.

I don’t know but I think I made a decision.  It was a tough decision for me (i.e. had a lot of emotions with it). I talked to somesmartfolks (i.e. some of you guys) to discuss the pros and cons from a more non-emotional thinking).  I admitted that I was sorta kinda messed up with all my emotions (i.e. I thought I wasn’t, but I was— ya can’t make a good decision when listening tooooo much to your emotions).  ANYWAY, I listened and think I have made a good decision (i.e. there seems to be more good than bad with this decision I think).  I meditated about it and prayed about it; I feel comfortable with it.  But I really don’t know for sure if it is the right decision.  I think I talked to the right folks but I don’t know!  ha ha   Maybe I just talked to the folks who I knew would give me the advice I wanted to really hear.  Such is life.

I went for my first bicycle ride this week.  It was colder and winder than I thought it was going to be.  It felt much better to turn around and have the wind at my back and going down hill (i.e. just like life). I talked by phone with a friend from MN who I met in AZ in an Alzheimer’s support group.  She has been a 24/7 caregiver for several years to her husband; she is a Believer (i.e. Believer in that she believes in Jesus Christ as her Lord and Savior--do you think that makes a difference--I think it makes a huge massive difference in my life).  Sooooo how is it going—my husband is sliding (i.e. some ugly events)—how are you doing—my friends think I have changed; I don’t think soooo but they say I have—sooooo how are you doing—I have grown and I groan; some folks say I’m soooo non emotional; it might seem that way on the outside but on the inside, it’s a waydifferentsituation.  She is a great gal with a good heart; my kind of person. 

ItchieBitchie asks—Can you objectively evaluate your situation and adjust accordingly?  Can you make adjustments to alter your situation? Can you keep your emotions out of your evaluation?  What does it take to change ”whatever needs to be changed” to put you on the right trail? I don’t know the answers to any of those questions for you.  I need to answer them myself.  ItchieBitchie says—Self-evaluation is soooooo hard (i.e. many times maybe inaccurate).

MissPerfect asks--Can a person with a dour attitude change?  My opinion is I think soooo but it is very hard and quite unlikely: when that attitude is deeply ingrained into one’s brain, it is hard to change (i.e. it seems most die with that attitude—it might even get worse with age maybe).  But at their funeral, it won’t be said that so-and-so had a dour attitude but probably everyone knows it.  Don’t worry if you think you have a dour attitude, they will say something nice at your funeral.  Oh yes, they will.  They always do (i.e. even if it's a fake report). 

My college basketball coach at good old Northwestern College, Coach Myskens, said he wanted us to be hostile, mobile and agile.  Well, I’m not very hostile anymore a.k.a. competitive, I’m not as mobile anymore, and I’m not as agile anymore.  I guess what I’m saying is that I’m not as good as I use to be.  I know it and it shows.  A pickleball/golf buddy told me that every year his drives are 7 yards shorter.  I don’t know if that process will ever stop.  What do you think?  That is what I thought. I was playing catch with our granddaughter, Charlie, in their house when I was there (i.e. grandpa can get by with that).  It seemed that my reactions weren't as fast as they use to be—I can’t understand that.  What!!!  I mentioned that to a friend and she said--Hard to say...eyesight, cataracts? Or hands not reacting as fast? Or, probably this one, memory not accurate. Stress is a HUGE elephant in the room....affects lots of things. GeorgeTheCrook says—There are a lot reasons for lot of stuff like--"I made my money the old-fashioned way. I was very nice to a wealthy relative right before he died." - Malcolm Forbes

MissPerfect says--There are really only two things you need to do in order to simplify your life – the first is to take a little time and decide what it is that’s important to you and the second is to try and get rid of as much of the other stuff and the things that get in the way of what’s important to you as you possibly can. Is that reality or fantasy?

The skinny of it is I have lost confidence in a person.  Yes, I have.  Are you a dependable person?  Consumers want a dependable car and if it isn’t dependable, they get a new one; they just don’t like an undependable car.  Employers like dependable employees.  Friends like dependable friends.  Sooooo I was going to use our DVD player, but our smart TV said it was an “invalid format.”  What, it always worked before.  Sooooo I googled it and there was talk about not having the proper resolution—I didn’t change any resolution.  Soooooo I just unplugged the TV and the receiver for 5 minutes and bingo, it worked (i.e. keep it simple stupid).  BUT, can I now depend on it to work (i.e. I don’t know)?  It will take me some time for me to once again have complete confidence in it.  Then when and if I do, I will forget about it.  Interesting to me.  CrazyMarvin says—That is how it works with folks as well! If we lose confidence in someone, it takes a long time to get it back. If they let you down again, we lose all confidence again and we might not ever have confidence in them again (i.e. it’s like dried up oatmeal on my breakfast bowl).  I don’t know! I wish I could unplug this person for a reboot (i.e. I don’t know for sure but my guess is that it’s not going to happen).  Maybe it’s time for me to move on! I don't know!  Such is life.

I don’t know folks but it appears that if you are in the main stream or any stream at all,  there sure are a lot of “differences of opinions.”  Some of you folks won’t agree with me about that either (i.e. difference of opinion)!!!  It appears that for many, what folks use to think is not “the in thing” anymore (i.e. like halfpipe at the Olympics didn’t use to be part of the games).  Many folks think way different than the previous generations.  Maybe and probably it has always been that way.  Many folks decide not to be part of the differences that they don’t agree with (e.g. move to an over 55 gated community where life might be a lot simpler and more enjoyable being around folks that agree with them more).  What do you think?  Years ago, in the United Sates, folks just moved farther west to get away from those folks they didn’t want to be around or who disagreed with them. Really, disagreement is not a new thing.  There were 620,000 deaths from the Civil War (i.e. 400,000 from disease).  Sooooo I’m probably wrong that differences of opinions are stronger now (i.e. maybe it just seems that way).  Such is life.

Some more from the “glut of information.”  A brother-in-law sent this to me by email soooooo it must be right (i.e. some person from PyeongChang forwarded it to him)!  Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day.  Teach a person to use the Internet and they won't bother you for weeks, months, maybe years unless you give them your email address.  ~   In the 60's, people took LSD to make the world weird. Now the world is weird, and people take Prozac to make it normal. 

Talk about differences of opinions, a friend gave me the DVD series of “The West" which is a PBS production.  I really enjoyed the DVDs.  The settling of the West was a lot about differences of opinions.  One group would come and kill the folks who lived there and then another group would come in and kill them and then another group who was stronger and had more passionate would kill those folks.  It just went on for a long time.  Much of the conflict was about freedom, beliefs, and about money (i.e. minerals and bounty of the land).  Eventually many were displaced, and The United State became in control and passed laws even though many groups disagreed.  It appears that usually the most powerful and the ones who have the most money and have the strongest passion, win (i.e. usually the majority). 

An old adage is—There is more wisdom in silence than noise!  Sooooo, I better make some silence for you!  Such is life.

Have a FUN day my friends unless you have other plans. (-:

erv

MyFriendJean says—The best antiques are old friends.

P. S. For all the hype about 'going for the gold,' we're so weary at the end of the day that going for the sofa is as good as it gets.